What did I do wrong?

I have a burden. There has been this lady at work who is so curious about other religions and really searching for something meaningful in her life. She likes church and she likes worshiping, but lately she just has felt like something is missing. Sounds like a witnessing opportunity waiting to happen doesn't it? I thought so too. I was really annoyed at myself for missing the boat on the Revelation seminars and not inviting her to them; I think she would have enjoyed them. But I didn't, so I repremanded myself for not witnessing and tried to pray about another opportunity.

So this last week I've been impessed to ask her to go to church with us this weekend. On Saturday. She had a lot of questions, and said that she would email her brother and sister and law to see what they thought and the come to church this morning. He is a minister, I'm not sure for what church, and him and his wife are major mentors for this lady. So pretty much whatever they say or think goes. So I told her a little bit about Adventism and gave her the pastor's name and the church's address and the time and she sounded really excited. I was really excited too, and I just prayed all day yesterday and then all morning that the Holy Spirit would convict her to come to church. So we made it to church on time and waited out front for her.

She didn't show.

I'm so disappointed! I thought for sure that I had taken the opportunity that God had given me to witness to her. I thought that I had made a connection and that the Holy Spirit would do His job and work in her heart. I don't know what I thought would happen at church. a major conviction, maybe. a life changing revelation, maybe. Or maybe just a point of contact from which to spring with more information. But it doesn't matter, because she didn't come.

I'm so sad. I don't know what I did wrong and I don't know what I could have done different. I thought for sure she was ready and I was ready and the Holy Spirit had used me. Maybe he did, but for what? Was it a learning experience that I had to have for myself? Was it an exercise in sharing what I believe? Do I really know what I believe enough to share it in the first place? Of course I have the conviction and the love of Jesus and I just believe it becuause I believe it's the God given truth. Maybe it's the love of God that needs to be shared and not what I believe. They always say that anyway. Relationships before rules and regulations. But still. I just wish it would have turned out. I know God has a plan and that He is working through me somehow. My narrow human mind thinks that things should go the way I want them to. But I know that they don't. He is faithful and He knows what He's doing. If I'm in tune with Him and follow His leading, He'll allow me to be used for His glory. I just need the patience to wait for that to happen and the willingness to be used.

Thanks for letting me get this out.